miercuri, 22 octombrie 2008

The United States of Tudor

"I recall when our lives were unusual and electric. When we burned with something close to fire. But now we sway to a different rhythm. Lives lived without meaning or even directed hope. The passage of time measured only by loss. Loss of a job, loss of a minivan... a son."

"There's another thing to learn about tears, they can't make somebody who doesn't love you any more love you again. It's the same with prayers. I wonder how much of their lives people waste crying and praying to God. If you ask me, the devil makes more sense than God does. I can at least see why people would want him around. It's good to have somebody to blame for the bad stuff they do. Maybe God's there because people get scared of all the bad stuff they do. They figure that God and the Devil are always playing this game of tug-of-war with them. And they never know which side they're gonna wind up on. I guess that tug-of-war idea explains how sometimes, even when people try to do something good, it still turns out bad." (The United States of Leland)

I recall the days when I'd imagine myself saying "Hi! My name is Tudor and I'm here to change the world". I'm here to change the way people think, to make the world a better place. Call me a hippie if it makes you feel better. I don't know...I guess it's just sad to see people building walls between them, artificial/superficial walls, bounderies, not beeing..as they used to be..

...the days when I'd imagine myself just like in the movies, having a happy life in a happy family, with happy friends and all that junk. Oh, and a happy girlfriend, right, let's not forget that. I'd imagine all that and it'd feel good for a few moments. Then it would all disappear in thin air, boom! snap back to reality and face the facts. There is no perfect human being, a physical and mental flawless person, male or female. There is no perfect family. There are no perfect people to be your friends. There is no perfect relationship.

Hi! My name is Tudor and I'm here to change your mentality.

vineri, 10 octombrie 2008

Ce ai?


-Ce ai?

-N-am nimic!

-Hai mai, de ce esti nervos?

-De ce sunt nervos? pai hai sa-ti zic de ce sunt nervos...sunt nervos pentru ca imi vine sa te sarut si nu pot. Pentru ca imi vine sa te imbratisez si nu pot. Pentru ca daca nu te vad, nu e bine; daca te vad, nu e bine. Pentru ca daca ma port frumos nu e bine, daca ma port urat iar nu e bine. Pentru ca te-as cuprinde in sarutari si imbratisari 24 de ore pe zi, 7 zile din 7. Si nu pot. Pentru ca as vrea sa adorm langa tine si sa ma trezesc langa tine si nu pot. Pentru ca as vrea chipul tau sa fie primul pe care-l vad in fiecare zi, inaintea tuturora. Si nu pot. Pentru ca ti-as indeplini fantezia de a fuma o tigara in pat dupa ce te trezesti. Si nu pot. Pentru ca simt ceva si nu pot sa exprim. Nu ma lasi.

Tu ce ai?

vineri, 3 octombrie 2008

Here we go again...


"For most problems the Marine is issued a solution. If ill, go to sickbay. If wounded, call a Corpsman. If dead, report to graves registration. If losing his mind, however, no standard solution exists."

Jarhead